Being Broken....By Sindy van den Bergh

This story started with a simple yet desperate prayer: I am broken. Please fix me!

In stillness I received a reply that was comforting and provided me with a much needed sense of perspective.

I saw an image of a beautiful mosaic being created. Though I could not see the full picture, I just knew that it would be an awesome sight to behold once completed.

Anyone who has seen, or created a mosaic knows that you cannot complete the picture with only whole pieces. Many of the parts have to be broken in order to place in just the right position to create the desired effect. I say “desired” because this mosaic is my life. Even though I do not particularly like the times I have been smashed to pieces, in the greater scheme of things I do Desire a beautiful and fulfilled life.

When I think the cost of this chosen life is too great to bear, I remember that I may not be able to control what other people do, but I can choose my reaction to that. Though it may hurt like hell, I choose to see the beauty in being broken at this time.  And with a little help and support from the Angels, I may even be able to one day forgive and thank those who have helped create the broken parts that make me whole and beautiful.

Till then I will keep reminding myself to breathe, and keep looking for the light at the end of the dark tunnel. Sometimes that beauty is only possible to view through tears or the eyes of a close friend sent to support you in your time of need. That’s the kind of love and support that the most awesome mosaics are made of.

To anyone else out there who feels broken or even a little cracked right now, know that though it may be a lonely place sometimes, you are not alone.

 I wish you much support, light and love